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Nimeyal

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From now on, I will no longer publish the story about the "Unholy Grail" in public. The age regression elements in there, especially all the age regression based stories, just disturb too many people. No matter how often I try to explain myself, I, like everyone else, have to obey certain rules.


The BOLH universe has also contained age regression elements in the past. That is now a thing of the past, as some may have noticed on the newer site.


I will probably start deleting certain content on my site in the next few days..

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Just realized that it has been 11 years since I opened this account. The once wonderful platform has gone through so many changes that have nothing to do with the original freedoms I once held so dear. Without question, progress is not possible without changes and I am not an operator of this platform. But it seems that certain content is being cut more and more.


But since I decided to retire here at the beginning of the year, it won't really bother me if someone from the very top gets the idea to ban me as well.


Speaking of retreat. Yes, even though I still submit content here from time to time, especially my last two big comic stories, that doesn't mean that I have once again, as I have so many times before, changed my mind regarding a farewell. I guess I've had my time here. And it was nice. Initially.

But I'm going to enjoy my birthday today and push away all the negative thoughts and feelings that plague me every day.


I catch myself again and again in certain situations where I think that this was only yesterday, before I realize that these were years or decades. Maybe I'm still more of a child than an adult inside.

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Ich war so sehr in den letzten Monaten und Jahren darauf fixiert irgendwelche Personen zufrieden zu stellen, in dem ich dass lieferte was diese begehren. Also Author ist das eins der ziemlich dümmsten Dinge, welches man tun kann, da man dadurch auch seine eigene Kreativät beschränkt. Ich habe das Glück, dass ich im Gegensatz zu anderen Personen hier, nicht auf irgend ein Wohlwollen angewiesen bin. Ich werde deshalb weiter einer begrenzten Anzahl von Personen meine neuen Seiten präsentieren und die Anderen werden die selben Seiten stark verzögert oder gar nicht erhalten. Im Grunde ist es eigentlich egal, da beide Seiten kaum bis gar keine Kommentare abgeben, Wir leben heutzutage in einer Gesellschaft, wo man einander nicht mehr viel zu sagen hat, weil unsere Gedanken tagtäglich zu vielen Reizen ausgesetzt sind, welche uns weitgehenst abstumpfen. Ich schließe mich da gar nicht aus. Als Autor trifft mich diese Reizüberflutung allerdings in doppelter Hinsicht. Ich finde so gut wie gar keinen Grund mehr, warum ich noch irgendetwas mit irgendjemanden teilen sollte. Ein Grund, welcher mich zu einer Rückkehr hier veranlassen könnte, ist also so gut wie gar nicht vorhanden. Meine Premium-Mitgliedschaft endet 2027. Vielleicht halte ich bis dahin durch.


Ich bin mir sehr wohl bewusst, dass meine Bildergeschichten nicht jedermanns Geschmack sind. Zumal die Verwandlungen dort in Bezug auf Alter, Geschlecht oder Ethnien von vielen Personen wiederholt als eine Art Angriff gegen sich selbst oder auf betimmte Bevölkerungsgruppen angesehen werden. Dabei wird völlig außer Acht gelassen, dass es sich hier um reine Fiktion handelt. Die gleichen Personen, welche sich beklagen in herabwürdigender Art und Weise behandelt zu werden, agieren allerdings genau in der gleichen hasserfüllten Art und Weise. Wir sollten aufhören, unsere Meinungen anderen aufzuzwängen, sondern wieder damit beginnnen Meinungen auszutauschen. Mir gefällt auch vieles in der Welt nicht, aber jede Diktatur hat damit begonnen, weil Personen nur Ihre eigene Sichtweise als die einzige Wahrheit betrachten. Jeder vermeintlich gute Gedankengang kann sich ohne weiteres zum Bösen verkehren. Viele Weltverbesserer mit guten Ideen haben diese bittere Lektion lernen müssen. Aber ich merke, dass ich schon wieder zu weit abschweife.

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As I start my first account in 2008 on Deviantart the community was strong and curious. But these years are gone. I´m tired and don`t want submit anything in the near future.


I don`t know if I will getting missed by someone. Some will maybe the most won`t care.


Seems that my time is over and I have to accept it. I appreciated the coments who I got even they got over the last years more and more less until I got barely nothing back.


Like my friend :iconautumnnatural: mentioned:


His quote: " think how people communicate online has changed. I think now it's discord. I feel like there's kind of a trend of people who are isolating themselves in communities because they don't want to deal with toxic randos."


I think he has right about. But this don`t help to increase my mood.


I will return in a half year or more to see if someone left a comment in the meanwhile. But I don´t expecting anything.

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As many of you newcomers may have noticed, I don't leave thank you notes on your pages. Unlike many others. On the one hand, because some are increasingly annoyed by it and on the other hand, because like the others, I rarely get any replies. Nevertheless, I look closely at all profiles.


Likewise your own works, if there are any. But even there, unlike in the past, I hardly give away my opinion. That is less inertia or because I would have nothing to say. Rather, the mass has influenced me, which also to my publications hardly an opinion to express. Okay I know. They are not my drawings. I only provide the background stories, which are partly good but partly not.


But that with now over 1,500 people who follow me and some others who constantly set the status from +watch to +unwatch, I would like to see comments from time to time. And not always comments from the same people. This is not meant to sound ungrateful.


But that's probably how it comes across. But many of you praise the differences of various artists. And I would also like to have different opinions. As long as it does not degenerate into fecal language or otherwise offensive, your opinion is welcome.


I know that most of the comments are mostly on the last page. But let me tell you here, it's a long very long comic. And it's starting to wear on me when no comments at all, or comments are infrequent. No doubt the current comic history is confusing. Most of my executive artists have warned me to publish something where the why and wherefore is not explained as far as it goes. But I am not a friend of always giving everything away immediately.


Halloween day is once again the anniversary of my birthday. Having a birthday in the dark season is at least as much a burden for me as getting hardly any feedback on my comics. But so be it. Some get literally everything blown in from behind and others lead a perpetual shadow existence.


Try to stay healthy while I try to stay alive.

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